Ready for Wife.
About a month ago, I realized I hadn’t obsessed about some wedding related detail and furiously texted about this or that. I felt like I had my ideas of what was going to happen, and if not… well, somethings are bound to go wrong.
I’ve been focusing more of my energy on the after wedding stuff. What it means to be a wife, what it means to be married, what kind of wife do I want to be. And most of those answers, are an extension of who I am now. There won’t be some grand change, where I wake up and feel like a new person. But I’ve been mindful for the small changes taking place, of how relationships are slightly shifting, of how we move through time and space, and what impact that has on how others interact with us.
Perhaps I am more mindful of this as we are navigating the holidays. We’ve made our arrangements to see family, and the schedule felt good. Time was well distributed, enough to see everyone, but not so much to spread it thin. But of course, it’s never enough and feelings are bound to be hurt. We are very lucky that everyone is going to be in one state. We go back and forth between are we being reasonable, are we working with people enough? to we are reasonable, sometimes scheduling is an issue. This will get bigger when we have our own children. It’s about making decisions for us, as a unit and our respective families, and being trying to be fair.